For Crying Out Loud
A song about leading with kindness and having faith in people in a world that seems to want to beat that out of you.
She took the sun
She took the moon,
She palmed some stars as she waved goodbye
Then she left the room
I sat right down,
She couldn’t go far
That’s when the weight of a world with no light fell
And broke my heart
That’s the price you pay when you live with your head in the clouds
That’s the price you pay when you live with your head in the clouds
They’re gonna take what they take when they take it
For crying out loud.
She took my heart
She stole my soul
She laughed out loud as she ran away, her shit never grows old
I sat right down,
She couldn’t go far
That’s when the weight of a world with no love fell
And broke my heart
That’s the price you pay when you live with your head in the clouds
That’s the price you pay when you live with your head in the clouds
They’re gonna take what they take when they take it
For crying out loud.
You can take all my love, you can steal all the light
You can hide all the stars from the sky
But my heart is on my sleeve
And my love is too big to hide.
Took back the sun
The Moon did rise
I saw the stars all re align
When I looked in your eyes
Chorus
They’re gonna take what they take when they take it
You got make all the love when you can make it
They’re gonna take what they take when they take it
For crying out loud.
Mercy Sakes Alive
Love, apathy and narcissism… maybe? What do you think it means? Let me know.
You there
got a bucket load of don’t care
you can’t go anywhere
without you thinking bout me.
Chased down
followed me all around the town
I’m all but tore down
When you’re not thinking bout me
Chorus
don’t want to shout about it
don’t want to wail and moan
don’t want to read about it 24 7
you be my queen B
I’ll buzz around your hive
You’re such a sweet taste
mercy sakes alive
You know
all the fuss is just a big show
for all the stuff that we don’t know
I want you thinking bout me
child please
please stop it with this third degree
your love is gonna set me free
need you here with me
Chorus
You always get it when you want it
Just won’t leave well enough alone
I still can’t put my finger on it.
But something’s surely going on
You there
got a bucket load of don’t care
you can’t go anywhere
without you thinking bout me.
Chased down
followed me all around the town
I’m all but Tore down
When you’re not thinking bout me
Chorus
If You Only Knew
You ever find yourself talking to yourself on a long drive going through scenario after scenario and wishing people had a better idea of what you are going through? Only me? Forget I said anything then.
Sometimes I find
a reason to believe
Most times reminded
why I had to leave
Still I wander down this road
you put me on
If you only knew me
If you only knew
Sometimes inspired
to go outside myself
Most times too tired
To think about somebody else
And yet I wonder
About this road you put me on
If you only knew me
If you only knew
You look to me to lead the way
I search for clever things to say
I find it hard to choose the words
My head my heart the lines get blurred
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
You don’t know
Sometimes inspired
to make a brand new day
Most times required
To keep the hounds at bay
Still I wander
On this road you led me down.
If you only knew me
.
Sometimes I find
A reason to believe
Mess Around
Tale as old as time. He loves her. She loves him, and him, and him. Love isn't always kind.
You said you needed to be needed
Said you’d never let me down
Tea is you’ve been seen your so mean
The word is all over the town
You fooled me big time a heart crime
Treated me just like a clown
You said you needed to be needed
I never thought you’d mess around
I told you I loved you I showed you I loved you
I did what you asked Just like you demanded
Now here I am stranded
I walked through the fire I’m no love denier
I did what you asked I fashioned you a crown
But you mess around
You said it’s fire desire
I never thought you’d sneak around
You said you needed to be needed
I never guessed you’d mess around
You mess around
You mess around
I told you I loved you I showed you I loved you
I did what you asked Just like you demanded
Now here I am stranded
I walked through the fire I’m no love denier
I did what you asked I fashioned you a crown
But you mess around
You mess around!
Not Afraid Of Falling
When I was 17 I came home and told my dad that I finally found a job. I was going to be a roofers assisstant. I also told him I was deathly afriad of heights. I said I was afraid of falling. He said, “Mark, don't be afraid of falling. Worry about the sudden stop at the end.” That was dad logic in the Bezanson house. I took it to be a metaphore to use on many occasions. In this song it doesn't end so well. Sometimes it doesn't. I blame the mermaid for his eventual fall.
He went out sailed off and moved on
Tried to steer clear of the shore
The horizon was all he could count on
He chased but found nothing more
THe Sun and the mood and the night sky
Were all he had for his guide
The edge of the world was looming
Then a vision appeared by his side
She whispered some words into his ear
He nodded, turned his boat around.
He followed her across the wide ocean
Her whispers made the only sound
The sky was replaced by her beauty
The horizon made way for the sea
And as he slipped over the port side
The fall was beckoning
He’s not running scared, he’s just not prepared
To open those old wounds once again
He’s not afraid of falling. It’s the sudden stop at the end.
No whispers no stars when you’re falling
You can’t see the water around
No sounds can peirce the big empty
Just gets cold as you sink down
The sun and the moon and the night sky
They all turned their heads away
As he slipped into the darkness
The fall stopped and took him away
He’d been bruised and battered, his heart torn and shattered
He’d taken his hat from the ring
He’d come to his senses, built up his defences,
To guard against just such a thing
He’s not running scared, he’s just not prepared
To open those old wounds once again
He’s not afraid of falling, It’s the sudden stop at the end
RUIN
A simple case of unrequited love. Not that anything about love is simple.
Well it is real good to see you were the first words from her mouth
It was plain to see, the words didn’t ring true.
There’s a small light that goes out when you hopes start heading south.
I think she felt that, but didn’t know what to do.
It was one time, one night, a long time ago
She lit a spark that quickly turned to flame
But the good byes, small lies and the I guess I got to go
Should have been the hint she didn’t feel the same
She didn’t feel the same
She’ll be my ruin She’ll be the death of me
She’ll be my dog days of summer She’ll be the edge of my sea
She’ll be my ruin She will be my end
Now that I had a taste of her love I can’t go back again
I can’t go back again
She does all the talking, doesn’t touch her wine
She says how such good friends we’ll make
But her eyes are down, towards the ground she can’t look into mine
It’s a kind way to say I’m a mistake
So I purse my lips, say goodbye, gather myself and go
The bell chimes as I close the door
I feel like a fool like I always do it’s a lesson never learned
Unlucky in love but I still want to believe
Still want to believe
She’ll be my ruin
She’ll be the death of me
She’ll be my dog days of summer
She’ll be the edge of my sea
She’ll be my ruin
She will be my end
Now that I had a taste of her love I can’t go back again
I can’t go back again
She’ll be my ruin ….. I can’t go back again
Testify
For my wife Laura. No idea why she stays with me but as long as she does I'll be writing love songs for her.
I’ve been writing you sonnets
I got the rhymes to prove it
Heaven knows a love like this is rare
Two litttle gold circles
In front of the world we proved it
A love like ours is way beyond compare
I want to testify
I want to testify
I want to shout your name
From every mountain top
I want to testify
I’ve been pickin you roses
I’ve got the scars to prove it
A bottle of wine and some chocolates at your door
You took my hand
under the stars we proved it
I earned your love and I want the world to know
When we’re apart I feel you near me
Just Like a work of art I see your beauty
Around me
I want to testify (Tell everybody)
I want to testify (I want to tell everyone)
I want to shout your name
From every mountain top
I want to testify
REEL WORLD
Social media. Drug of the 2010's and 20's.
I wouldn’t say that
I wouldn’t write that on your wall
But this little bird told me to pass it on
Can’t get into to focus
It just hokus pokus (crystal ball)
My words get a mind all of their own
The reel world is driving me crazy
All of my friends
are bringing me down
This bitter pill is so hard to swallow
Can’t get the to follow or like me now
Too much information
It’s not inspirational (at all)
This little bird told me to pass it on
It’s driving me crazy
The lines getting hazy (can’t see at all)
My words get a mind all of their own
The reel world is driving me crazy
All of my friends
are bringing me down
This pill is so hard to swallow
Can’t get the to follow or like me now
Holding On
Nothing prepares you for that time in life when you have to look after the people who spent their lives looking after you. It's like watching your first superhero get beat up by the bad guy, only he doesn't get up. Tell the people you love that you love them as often as you can. And hug them every chance you can. People say it for a reason. I love you dad. I miss you every single day.
I can’t say a single thing you don’t already know
I can’t take you anywhere that you want to go
Just one look into your eyes tonight
And I know you’re holding on
holding on for dear life
Nothing ventured nothing gained living day to day
doesn’t help it when the pain won’t cry away
just one look into my eyes tonight
And you know, I’m holding on
holding on for dear life
I can’t find a way to say it The words don’t come that free
I want us to be together like how it used to be
And I can’t watch this forever I can't watch my hero fade
It’s like a mountain slipping away
No time left to show when day turns into night
No words can explain how dark swallows the light
When I look into your eyes tonight
I know that you held on you held on for dear life.
And I know that you held on
you held on for dear life.
I can’t find a way to say it The words don’t come that free
I want us to be together like how it used to be
And I can’t watch this forever I can't watch my hero fade
It’s like a mountain slipping away
Holding on. I'm holding on for dear life.
Damage
There are times when you see relationships fail and the carnage affects everything and everyone they touch. How can something so good can go so wrong? I don't want to know. But I've seen it enough times to know it's a real thing. A very real, hurtful, terrible thing. I wrote this song about 15 years ago. The guitar parts were recorded on Garage Band. We tried to redo them but couldn't get them right so the originals remain. Big thanks to Andy Bowmer for believing in this song and reminding me it needed to see the light of day.
It’s fancy meeting you here
Bleeding at this place
No mere gun for hire
You trade it in for lace
I can see by your eyes
The shadow running black
One look into your heart
There’s no turning back
Take some more chances
Fight with all you need
Use up my good graces
Lead with it if it bleeds
Use my desires
Make me run the race
Tell me I’m losing
to the ghosts you won’t erase
I’ve gotten used to
The subtle frustration
That magnified all of your reign
Look at the damage
In all that remains
Why are the coldest nights always so clear?
Why do the stars shine so bright,
Whenever we’re lying here?
When will we ever turn back?
When will you let go of all that I lack?
Look at the damage
Our love has wrought tonight
As if to pay homage
To the wrongs that made it right
Look at the damage
To all our plans well laid
We tune out the wreckage
From which our love was made
I’ve gotten used to
The subtle frustration
That magnified all of your reign.
Look at the damage
In all that remains.
Why are the coldest nights always so clear?
Why do the stars shine so bright,
Whenever we’re lying here?
When will we ever turn back?
When will you let go of all that I lack?
Just look at the damage.